In the year 2015, my faith was tested, I decided to give my life to God. I knew this day would come and I also knew this was for me. The day of Pentecost was a beautiful sunny day, I invited friends and family to witness my new beginnings. Before I was baptized my emotions were all over the place one reason was that my husband showed up late and missed the entire service. I carried that burden throughout the day and for many years along with every disappointment that occurred in my life. I battled with depression for many years due to my childhood experiences and most of my life I was also unaware that I was depressed.
My family doctor was unaware of this issue and I never thought it was important. Mental Illness can affect us all, it’s also a topic some Christians don’t like to discuss, its complex and challenging for some believers.
Suicide thoughts started to develop and increase rapidly and I wanted to leave the misery behind along with my husband and two children, give up, and create an exit plan. But God’s plan was greater. What I need you to understand is that this was a daily fight with myself along with the constant lies of the enemy. I had to learn how to fight differently this wasn’t a physical fight it was a spiritual battle that required me to be on my knees in prayer.
God sent new people into my life so that I can transform into the image I was created to be. God rooted me by building trust first in him, second self-love, for he lives in me, the third discipline; practicing a faith-based life by being an example of his grace and fourth, believing in the power of his word by praying and fasting for his victory. The moment I surrendered my life to God the healing began and my relationship with God got stronger. Today I am delivered, healed, and transformed by the grace of God. As a professional Therapist, I help guide God’s people from a fixed mindset to a growth mindset; practicing self-care as a righteous path to self-mastery.
Author: Tanasha Smith
Registered Social Worker/Therapist
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